I have been pouring through images, shuffling my 'things' around trying to come up with a post for you. Something, anything that is outside the box, so to speak. I took some photos; don't really care for them. As far as making a piece, I opened my drawer and cupboard and dug through it, but nothing happened. What do you do when nothing happens? When the only creativity that I have right now is in designing a virtual world for my pet, Moxie on Facebook? How sad is that? Even until last year I would have titled myself an 'artist'. Perhaps not a defined one, but 'an artist' none the less. Now, I'm pretty sure that I fail that title. It no longer applies. Crafter, homemaker, those labels work. A fiddler. One who fiddles. Fiddles with the digital world while I live in the real one. So, with my thirty-fourth birthday approaching in two days, I declare myself no longer an artist! Know what? It feels good. Letting it go. I think I let go a long time ago. Now to change all my profile descriptions and to stop designing my personal website. I was going to pool all of Internet presences into one website. Once I started to build it I realized there isn't much to tell. At least nothing of significance. And that is Okay. Thirty-four. 3-4. Hmmm... another year. Wonder what this one will bring? Knitting. I know it will bring knitting as I am taking a beginners class in March for three hours on every Saturday. Confused? Not me. Not anymore.
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abby.. it's normal to wondering!! 2 days before my 34 i was wondering.. now i m 34 and 8 month.. and i'm wondering... the day you will stop wondering will be the las day of your real life .. well i'm wondering " what else after??" stoooooooooooooooop!! lol!! bises à toi !! et pour moi tu es une grande artiste!! meme si tu es dans le monde virtuel, c'est la réalité qui est virtuelle et la pensée qui est réelle.. you see?? i let you translate.. hihiihi!!hihihihi in french means lauth like a crazy girl...
Merci Lilibulle!
xoxo~
No, not an artist. A creator...of life, joy, a warm home, warm hearts, love, laughter, broken dishes, snowmen. And wouldn't you rather be a creator than an artist? It certainly looks more impressive on a resume. Occupation: Creator of Many, Many Things.
Abbie
Your go where your heart leads you everyday--what can be confusing about that??
There are so many creative outlets these days, that they have far outstripped the traditional notion of what an artist does. I suspect that even though you may not feel as though you deserve the title "artist," you are certainly a very creative soul...
I hope you have a wonderful birthday! 34? You are a baby!
xoxo,
Mary
I think that you're an artist who needs to be kind to herself just now. We drive ourselves crazy sometimes. You're just in one of those between times. It'll pass.
Take care...are you getting this storm, too?
Oh Abbie girl my dear blogging buddy-you are an artist in my mind! You are one of my favorite creative artistic bloggers I know!
And gosh if only I could be 34 again you lucky girl you~Happy Birthday!!! And thank you for your friendship and inspiration that you bring to me and to blogland!
SMILE~Tam!
a big step Abbie, but if you are comfortable taking that mantle off for now, then go with it. I agree with the feelings expressed above though, artist is a very difficult label, but creative is good and clear to all. have a very happy birthday, and don't sweat the what-to-dos, you'll know when you feel like something.
Once an artist at heart, the things pulls to you from all sides...even if at times, you divide yourself into a myriad of chores,and love, and family.
But that artist's passion, my dear Abbie, that remains in you and expresses itself in all sorts of way. The key is to let go of self-expectations and allow yourself to be revealed in the daily art of your life. Happy birthday tomorrow. Mine is on the 21st. It is a very interesting "swim" to be a Pisces, ins't it...;)
Oh, but you ARE an artist, Abbie! Think of how beautifully you paint pictures with words, how you've put together your lovely blogs, the images you choose to publish, the art that you've made, digital or otherwise, all that you do for your family . . . the list goes on and on. I love the music here, too--it's beautiful! And about turning 34? You're so young and you have so much of life ahead of you. I will be turning 56 this year, and I can't even believe that because I don't feel at all that old--however, I'd love to be turning 34 again! Cheers, and Happy Birthday on the 20th! Smiles, Jann
Oh my Dear! Coming up on 34! :-) So young. So very, very young. :-) I have it on the very best authority, because I'm progressing my way through my 70's. :-) With a Birthday coming up, next month.
And to declare one's self, anything which feels good, is a glorious Birthday Present to one's self. I congratulate you.
Wishing you an early Happy Birthday!
Aunt Amelia
"There seems to be so much more winter than we need this year."
~Kathleen Norris
Good to let it go at 3-4 and not 4-3. Gives you more time to soak in the simple blessings of life. Enjoy your special day!
We are who we want to be. If your believe "artist" no longer applies...then just be. Sometimes we want to break free of what we see as contraints or labels. Life is to live one day at a time. Go with the flow you feel within, be true to yourself and you will find contentment. We love you no matter what you call yourself!
Maureen
I can relate but not to call yourself an artist? If you are doubting yourself....that is ok, we all do it at some point. I remember the day a friend told me..Judy! You ARE an artist. I had been afraid all these years to say it.
Where have you wandered too. I have just ran across this blog and its dated feb 18th which is my birthday and here you are talking about your birthday.. quit funny I thought. I hope you are having fun learning all the new things live has to offer you. Kath' at www.lilbitoldlilbitnew.com
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