Sunday, November 4

Everything's kinda grey here right now.

I had such a good morning. Time change, up early to the clock and started a fun day. Went browsing through several antique/junk shops in Meredith looking for more treasure. I did find somethings, but they have lost their spark. I had a phone call from my brother this afternoon. I have mentioned him before, he choose to re-enlist in the Army after 20+ years out. 2 little kids, etc. He needs to be a hero. A hero. I wish I could make him see he's already a hero. To me, his kids, his family. Anyway.. he was heading to Afghanistan in December. Not anymore. He's heading to the Middle East today. Tonight. While I type. He's gone. I wanted to tell him so many things. That I love him, that I hope he stays safe. To come home. He is in the middle of divorce, and as if that's not enough of a battle, now he's going to war. My shop, my blog, everything that seemed so important to me this morning just doesn't mean much right now. My family. I want to gather them up and keep them close. I want to clean my home, make dinner, take stock of everything that's TRULY important and stop focusing on ridiculous, frivolous, crap. I am not religious person. But tonight, while I drove to pick up my son, I prayed. I prayed so hard tears ran down my face. My two year old said from the backseat 'It's all better, momma.' I said 'Yes, it's all better.' But it won't be. Not right now.

7 comments:

Junie Moon said...

Oh, bless your heart! This is hard, I know. I shall keep him in my thoughts and prayers for a safe return to the family that loves him.

Rosie's Whimsy said...

My heart goes out to you.....

Abbie said...

Thank you! Things are always a little better in the morning. I guess things have changed for a while. Now, instead of flipping to the Disney Channel first thing I put it on CNBC or FOX. A reality for thousands of families and loved ones right now. In my foolishness, I thought I could avoid this war. But it's come right into my home.

Caron said...

Abbie,
My heart goes out to you. You wanna go for a walk in Tilton this week? Call me. :-)

Hugs,
Caron

Mary said...

Oh Abbie, I am so sorry! Tears are pouring down my face right now at the thought. Yes, it's been all too easy for a lot of us to forget about this insane war. You are both in my thoughts and prayers
xoxo,
Mary

Anke said...

Abbie, i would feel the same way...kind of have been there when Doug was still in the army an that whole mess started, we were worried too. So my thoughts are with you...lot's of cheer up and supportive greetings your way....

tongue in cheek said...

I cannot imagine saying good bye to someone going to a war zone.

Blessings to you and yours.